Expectations

   Waking up has got to be one of the hardest expectations we have to meet. In the moments where we are asleep, all is at peace, and it is the one time that anyone can feel as though they have a piece of equality with those around them. Waking up is the one expectation that I don't enjoy meeting, as I am much more happier when I sleep, when I dream, than when I have to open my eyes and face the day.
   Surviving is the second expectation that seems to have such a demon attached to it. Once you get over the fact that you're awake, ripped from the simplicity of your dreams and your own mind, you are then expected to survive all that life has to throw at you, wether it is good or bad, it is an expectation that has a lot of strings attached to it. It is survival of the fittest, and those who have an easy time surviving don't get the joy of dreaming.
   I was never good at letting go , especially when it comes to anger. I have never met someone who can let go of anger as easily as we are expected to.  Anger is a strong emotion, and quite honestly I think it is one that a lot of people don't understand. The masses tend to lean more towards disappointment  rather than feeling angry, and I for one would much rather feel angry than disappointed  especially because I try to only give those I care about the power to have influence over my emotions. Not something I would advise others to do, because it doesn't work all that well, but I'm sure I'm not the only one who does this. Disappointment, to me is a much harsher emotion than feeling anger, but anger is harder for me to let go of.  I also don't enjoy letting people go from my life, as I think I need to do today, because they're starting to take advantage of all the chances I choose to give out in the run of a friendship or a relationship. Relationships are something that we need in life to gain fulfilment, but we have to have these relationships with people who disgrace the word "relationship". I've come across too many of these people in my life so far.
   Last, but not least, smiling even when you want to cry is an expectation that I think is absolutely ridiculous  especially when some people wont let you just plaster a smile on your face in the middle of a crowded room. You're damned if you do and damned if you don't, and it seems as though we let others run out lives more than we run them ourselves. I feel as though all of the expectations I have come to learn are forced upon me take away the power that I should have over my life because they are so overwhelming.
   Don't cave under the pressures of the expectations that are so cruelly thrust upon us. We all have somewhere to turn, we all deserve love, and we all deserve to be treated as we treat others. If we all took a second to remember that we are all under the same pressures as everyone else, than everything would go so smoothly around us.  We all deal with expectations in different ways, and some of us perform more fluently in some areas than others. If we stop expecting so much from others, maybe the expectations hanging over our heads will slowly disappear as well.