I have been running. I always run and it’s definitely a hard
habit to break. What is it that drives
us to run when things go wrong? And how do people stop running?
There are many things that I have been running from for a
long time. Passed relationships, health problems, friendships, you name it.
Fortunately, my legs haven’t tired from running yet and they’re still getting a
good work out.
If there’s any kind of advice I can give, it is to find
another way to cope instead of running. I can’t even begin to explain how
horrible I feel for running and how even more terrible I feel for not being
able to stop. Running as fast as I have been running has enabled me from having
any meaningful relationships and the ones that I thought were meaningful were
built with people that tend to only stick around for a short time.
Unfortunately, since I’ve been running FROM my life, I haven’t
been running towards anything of importance. My dreams are watching from the
sidelines as I pass them unnoticed. They don’t cheer, as I am the one who is
supposed to be cheering for my dreams. I am too afraid to start chasing dreams
for fear of failure and defeat, I’m afraid of rejection and being left. If I
feel that way, how many people out there feel the same? The thought is
overwhelming.
